I FEEL A CHANGE COMING SOON!
Nov.20,2009 was one of the worst days of my life. I spent the morning consoling a friend. Just letting her know that god doesn't give us more than we can handle. Little did I know I was going to put through a test of faith. When I felt she had calmed down I went home to take a nap. I awoke to the phone being shoved at me telling me it was my dad. He told me that my aunt had passed she had committed suicide.
I felt like my world had come to an end we shared such a special relationship. I didn't know how I could go on without her in my life. She had been hospitalized 2 months earlier for depression. After 2 weeks she was released me, my mom, and grandmother went to go stay with her. We took turns going back and forth so she wouldn't be alone. I had just returned home 1 week earlier because we ad another death in the family. I don't know if that was too much for her to handle or what.
I just cant understand why I never thought she could do something like this. She has 3 beautiful girls that she loved so much. I just cant see her leaving them alone. These last 5 months have been so hard. I cant how many times I've picked up the phone to call her. Only to realize that shes not there. Her death made me think about my life and things I want to change in it. Although I miss her terrible her death has made me make some positive changes in my life. I've been going to counseling and I'm starting to feel human again. It didn't kill me but it did make me stronger.
This is really touching. I have went through this my grandmother. One day I called her to tell her I loved her, at this time she couldn't talk and her husband and my brother was there with her. Later on that day, I though I would go over and spend some time over there So I picked up my sisters and went to her house. As we approached the house, we saw a lot of red and blue flashing lights in the front. At that point my heart started to pound. I wanted to stay strong for my little sisters so I did not say anything. As we pulled up, there were family members at the house already and my Aunt came out to tell us that she has passed. I didn't know what to say. I was speechless. My little sister took it hard. It did not hit me until the day of her funeral. Yes, death is an enemy and no one wants to die, but I am just happy to see that she is not in any more pain and struggling. She had ovarian cancer and she did not find out until she was in the last stages. The doctors couldn't do anyting about it. She is resting now. And I am just waiting on the day that I will be able to see her again.
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